Shattered Photos 

Listening to even my favorite songs sting
So I sit in my old desk chair,

Starring at words crossing the screen 

They’re there but aren’t what I see

Our first meeting, 

That smile I fell in love with

It’s still smiling at me,

Tho now it’s grown cold 

And the old pictures I hide from 

Still belong to our past

But I can’t tear them from who I am now,

Sitting it a darkening place without you

Wishing to banish all the memories

While still grasping them with desperate hands 

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Post Mortem Hello

You still ask me how I’m doing

As if you still care 

And all the feelings are still brewing 

Below the surface heating 

Ready to break the seal

Just in time for you to send that greeting 

As if I forgot you already

And have so easily moved on

But I’m barely standing steady
I store of how much more I can take

How much more I can brace against 

So I’ll keep smiling, keep being fake
Until I’m alone in my room 

No one to see how much it still hurts

Until these feeling are ready for their tomb

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Good Bye Future Plans 

Driving away so far has been the hardest partAnd as each light flashes by I feel my heart

It’s slowed down from my last glimpse at you

And I never thought us ending would ever come true

It’s funny how we think things last forever 

And what we want always becomes a never 

Now I’m out the door and going my own way 

Leaving you in the bed we used to play

Still wishing to go back in time to our start 

Taking steps backwards to and keep us from tearing apart

But as i pull into a new driveway

There’s no way I can stay

And that’s what’s breaking my heart the most. 

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Shadowed Time

It’s been a long time since admittance

Direction has come up missing

And life seems to have no balance

Days are scurrying by,

Hiding in the crevices in shadows

Not matter how hard you pry

They never loosen grip

To be indulged upon 

And used to fill in the gaps

And the spaces between our beginning

And our tragic end

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Lily’s first date 

I’m working on this to add into the story. It’s far from ready or finished but it’s a start. Thought and comments please. I’m open to suggestion for how to continue 

He had asked her. She had hoped for so long, but could barely get more than a hello from him. Now he suddenly wanted to go out with her.
Lily paced back in forth, from one side of the room to the other biting what was left of her nails. On her twelfth lap she paused in front of her mirror. 
“Am I really going out with Jade?” 
The sudden hollering of her mother was all the answer she needed.
“Lily, your date is here.” Her mother undoubtedly was yelling up to her intentionally with him standing right there in the kitchen with her.
She hurried down the stairs to prevent anymore damage that could be done by her mother. 
When she entered the kitchen she found both Wolf Vein and her mother talking with Jade.
You have got to be kidding me! She kept wee thoughts to herself. Wolf Vein being wt the house ensured a harsh first impression.

 

She smiled at Jade, walking past both her mother and Wolf Vein, avoiding eye contact. “I hope you didn’t have to wait too long. Are you ready to go?”
Before Jade could answer, Wolf Vein interjected, “We haven’t quite finished getting to know him Lily. And your mother was just about to make tea.”
She stepped closer to Wolf Vein, eyes staring straight at his. “Oh, don’t worry about that. We will have tea at dinner I am sure. Why don’t we get going Jade?”
With both of them satiating at him now, Jade shifted what foot he let take most his weight. “We don’t have to leave just this minute, and you’re mom is going through the trouble of making the tea.”
“Perfect! Take a seat.” Wolf Vein turned towards the back of the kitchen and went over to help Lily’s mother with the cups. 
When his back was turned Lily shot Jade a pathetic look. He smiled and stepped closer to whisper in her ear. “It wouldn’t make a good impression to decline.”
His words were softly spoken. The gentle whisper was not protected from Wolf Veins ears. Lily could see him hold his breath the moment Jade opened his mouth. As soon as Jade stepped away again, Wolf Vein exhaled, only loud enough for Lily to have notice his held breath. 
He and her mother carried four large coffee cups full of tea over to the table. 
Lily’s mother finally spoke up, “ So Jade, do you have any plans for after high school?” 
“I plan on going to college, though I haven’t quite decided exactly what I want to get a degree in. I have been taking a few college courses online for free to get a better idea.” He spoke as if he was perfectly prepared for the question. The answer designed to give her mother exactly what she wanted to hear. And to make him seem like a mature young man. “Chemistry is my academic weakness but I would like to improve it. I have that class with your daughter, so perhaps we can work on it together.” He turned his gaze to her with his last statement. 
Lily could feel her cheeks warming as she fought the urge to smile. She looked away and caught Wolf Veins eyes. He seemed concerned, not jealous like she expected him to be.
“Well, it sounds like you are trying to make a plan before you dive in head first.” Her mother gave him an endearing smile and kept drinking her tea. 
This time Jade focused on Wolf Vein with his gaze. “I like to have a plan, always.” The emphasis seemed a bit too strong for being casual but Lily let it go. He most likely felt it was Wolf Vein he had to impress the most. 

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If you were still a girl in high school and your crush suddenly after never acknowledging you, suddenly wants you to be his girlfriend with no warning. How do you respond?

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Queen Anne’s Lace 

Lovely flowers of lace

Creating a wonderful veil 

For the marriage of harmony and beauty

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