I keep going back and forth.
Choosing right or wrong,
Selfless or selfish?
This is a new place for me.
Lost in my own head.
The girl in the reflection is stranger.
Unsure and unaware of how to proceed.
Stumbling with shattered pieces falling.
Why can’t I just let it be?
I have no right getting involved.
My reflection smiles back at me,
Telling me it’s okay.
No, not again.
I won’t be the other one.
Keep pushing for more distance.
Her hand outstretched for me,
With a poisoned apple.
Would it be so bad?
To just take what I want,
Forget anyone else’s feelings?
Slip of the tongue.
Complete surrender and submission.
I know regret will come back to haunt me.
It’s too hard to choose.
But it’s too hard to go back to pretending.