Lily’s eyes shot open wide, staring up at her dark pale ceiling. Searching eyes followed the perimeter of the room, scanning through the shadows for the man who ruined her life. The mostly barren walls were held no sign of Black Wolf. Or her father.
Surrounded by dim light escaping through the window, she turned onto her other shoulder grimacing at her clock. Only one- thirty five. She smacked the wooden desk missing the alarm clock the first time she swatted at it. The second time the clock was pushed from view. With no more numbers flashing at her she could hide back under covers without the threatening loss of time.
I have a while. Schools not till seven. Sleep would be nice, but then again….
Chills crept through her, adding to the cool breeze now flowing through the window. Closing her graying eyes, Lily leaned back trying desperately to clear her mind, to push his lifeless eyes from memory for a little longer. The energy she had left at the late hour was rapidly being used up this way, but sleep still refused to take her away. Even with little energy to release, her body still held conscience, keeping her alert enough to feel her heartbeat still beating fast, her lungs still struggling to grasp air.
Stumbling through the hallway, rubbing her eyes until she could see clearly, Lily found her way to the last doorway on the left. Her shadow filled the small, simple bathroom. Stepping into the quaint room, the lacking of space became evident as she stepped between the sink and. the toilet, with only maybe four inches on either side of her hips.
Her eyes landed on a vase of dead flowers, drooping over the side of the glass, dropping useless petals. She touched a fallen petal laying away from the rest of the remaining petals. It almost disintegrated under her touch as if it had been sitting there for years. As the last remains crumbled the dark images flooded into sight once more, replacing the receding bloody nightmares.
She was biting at his arms, slashing at his throat. This had been how Black wolf wanted her trained. Test her self control and her loyalty.
Her victim, Wolf Vein had been the perfect choice. He was her closest friend. The only one
A bitter taste resembling blood filled her mouth; a taste that sheknew all too well. Swallowing worsened the flavor as it spread across her tongue, seeping into her taste buds and betweens the cracks of her lips.
It’s just an illusion. Nothing more.
Trying to break her senses free, she splashed cool water on her face. Forget him, I really do need to sleep. There’s nothing he can do to us. He’s gone forever. Calming her nerves came at the price of honesty. Lily looked at herself in the mirror. Why am I still seeing his face?
“ It’s just an illusion.” She repeated the words, still trying believe her own lies.
The taste of blood had not faded, but had distinctively sweetened.
Looking up in the mirror again, a horrid sight looked back. Blood traveled from the center of her mouth to the corners, seeping past the edges, and spread down her chin. Her eyes widened trying to find an origin for the blood.
She stood alone and shaking, knowing that opening her mouth would only make her fears more real. Licking her lips washed away some of the blood, but not what had already seeped into her skin.
Something was pulled it her mouth, forcing her mouth open, revealing white fangs stained with blood, coating her gums.
Her legs gave out on her and she pulled her legs to her chest. “No.” Softly begged herself, tears streaming down her face. “No. It´s not real. I didn’t do it. I swear.” Her body trembled as she sat on the floor, breathing heavy and fighting her sobs.
She could hear him calling to her, begging her to come to him
“You are so close to me my dear. You’re learning to quickly. Come show your clan what you can do.”
Lily dropped completely to the floor and pressed her head to the floor gasping for breath. Sweat dripped down her forehead and down her spine the chills started.
The flashbacks still kepyt hitting in waves.
“Lily! Stop it! He’s done, leave him there. He doesn’t deserve your help. Leave him to the others. They will finish him. Go clean yourself up and get dinner with the other children.”
“Stop it! Leave Wolf Vein alone!” Her screams were inaudible to everyone but her. And even less effective. She watched them beat him with their claws. He never screamed, not even once.
Someone grabbed her arm and her eyes shot back open. She was back in her bathroom and the taste was suddenly non-existent.
Lily looked at herself in the mirror once more. Her pale face was clean, no smudges ruined her mouth and no fangs protruded her lips. “Should have known.”
It was another panic attack driven by delusion based on the past.