Listening to even my favorite songs sting
So I sit in my old desk chair,
Starring at words crossing the screen
They’re there but aren’t what I see
Our first meeting,
That smile I fell in love with
It’s still smiling at me,
Tho now it’s grown cold
And the old pictures I hide from
Still belong to our past
But I can’t tear them from who I am now,
Sitting it a darkening place without you
Wishing to banish all the memories
While still grasping them with desperate hands
You still ask me how I’m doing
As if you still care
And all the feelings are still brewing
Below the surface heating
Ready to break the seal
Just in time for you to send that greeting
As if I forgot you already
And have so easily moved on
But I’m barely standing steady
I store of how much more I can take
How much more I can brace against
So I’ll keep smiling, keep being fake
Until I’m alone in my room
No one to see how much it still hurts
Until these feeling are ready for their tomb
Driving away so far has been the hardest partAnd as each light flashes by I feel my heart
It’s slowed down from my last glimpse at you
And I never thought us ending would ever come true
It’s funny how we think things last forever
And what we want always becomes a never
Now I’m out the door and going my own way
Leaving you in the bed we used to play
Still wishing to go back in time to our start
Taking steps backwards to and keep us from tearing apart
But as i pull into a new driveway
There’s no way I can stay
And that’s what’s breaking my heart the most.
It’s been a long time since admittance
Direction has come up missing
And life seems to have no balance
Days are scurrying by,
Hiding in the crevices in shadows
Not matter how hard you pry
They never loosen grip
To be indulged upon
And used to fill in the gaps
And the spaces between our beginning
And our tragic end
I’m working on this to add into the story. It’s far from ready or finished but it’s a start. Thought and comments please. I’m open to suggestion for how to continue
He had asked her. She had hoped for so long, but could barely get more than a hello from him. Now he suddenly wanted to go out with her.
Lily paced back in forth, from one side of the room to the other biting what was left of her nails. On her twelfth lap she paused in front of her mirror.
“Am I really going out with Jade?”
The sudden hollering of her mother was all the answer she needed.
“Lily, your date is here.” Her mother undoubtedly was yelling up to her intentionally with him standing right there in the kitchen with her.
She hurried down the stairs to prevent anymore damage that could be done by her mother.
When she entered the kitchen she found both Wolf Vein and her mother talking with Jade.
You have got to be kidding me! She kept wee thoughts to herself. Wolf Vein being wt the house ensured a harsh first impression.
She smiled at Jade, walking past both her mother and Wolf Vein, avoiding eye contact. “I hope you didn’t have to wait too long. Are you ready to go?”
Before Jade could answer, Wolf Vein interjected, “We haven’t quite finished getting to know him Lily. And your mother was just about to make tea.”
She stepped closer to Wolf Vein, eyes staring straight at his. “Oh, don’t worry about that. We will have tea at dinner I am sure. Why don’t we get going Jade?”
With both of them satiating at him now, Jade shifted what foot he let take most his weight. “We don’t have to leave just this minute, and you’re mom is going through the trouble of making the tea.”
“Perfect! Take a seat.” Wolf Vein turned towards the back of the kitchen and went over to help Lily’s mother with the cups.
When his back was turned Lily shot Jade a pathetic look. He smiled and stepped closer to whisper in her ear. “It wouldn’t make a good impression to decline.”
His words were softly spoken. The gentle whisper was not protected from Wolf Veins ears. Lily could see him hold his breath the moment Jade opened his mouth. As soon as Jade stepped away again, Wolf Vein exhaled, only loud enough for Lily to have notice his held breath.
He and her mother carried four large coffee cups full of tea over to the table.
Lily’s mother finally spoke up, “ So Jade, do you have any plans for after high school?”
“I plan on going to college, though I haven’t quite decided exactly what I want to get a degree in. I have been taking a few college courses online for free to get a better idea.” He spoke as if he was perfectly prepared for the question. The answer designed to give her mother exactly what she wanted to hear. And to make him seem like a mature young man. “Chemistry is my academic weakness but I would like to improve it. I have that class with your daughter, so perhaps we can work on it together.” He turned his gaze to her with his last statement.
Lily could feel her cheeks warming as she fought the urge to smile. She looked away and caught Wolf Veins eyes. He seemed concerned, not jealous like she expected him to be.
“Well, it sounds like you are trying to make a plan before you dive in head first.” Her mother gave him an endearing smile and kept drinking her tea.
This time Jade focused on Wolf Vein with his gaze. “I like to have a plan, always.” The emphasis seemed a bit too strong for being casual but Lily let it go. He most likely felt it was Wolf Vein he had to impress the most.
Lovely flowers of lace
Creating a wonderful veil
For the marriage of harmony and beauty